The experience of transplantation for patients and their significant ones: A difficult encounter of two worlds

Objectives This paper reports on a longitudinal qualitative study exploring concerns of 60 patients before and after transplantation. Methods Semi-structured interviews were conducted without time constraints in a protected space out of the hospital. Qualitative analysis was performed. Results Prior to transplantation, all patients talked freely about negative feelings, stigmatisation, being misunderstood by others, loneliness and culpability caused by increasing physical dependency or abandoned roles. They mentioned alternative ways to cope (magic, spirituality), and even expressed their right to let go. In a subset of 13 patients, significant ones allowed themselves in the interview, or were integrated on the request of the patients. In this modified setting, two illness-worlds were confronted. If common themes were mentioned (e.g., modified life plans, restricted space, physical and psychological barriers), they were experienced differently. Fear of transplantation or guilt towards the donors was overtly expressed, often for the first time. Mutual hiding of anxiety in order to protect loved ones or to prevent loss of control was disclosed. The significant ones talked about accumulated stress and exhaustion related to the physical degradation of the patient, fear of the unpredictable evolution of illness and financial problems, and stressed their difficulty to adapt adequately to the fluctuating state of the patient. After transplantation, other themes emerged, where difficulty in disclosure was observed: intensive care and near death experiences, being a transplanted person, debt to the donor and his/her family, fear of rejection. Conclusions With the self-imposed strategy of hiding concerns to protect one another, a discrepancy between two illness-worlds was created. When concerns were confronted during the interviews, a new mutual understanding emerged. Patients and their families stated the need for sharing concerns in the course of illness.